Calling All Skeletons

Here it is again yet it stings like the first time
Seems it never ends, double nickels on your dime
I thought we were friends, I guess it just depends who you ask
These feelings tend to leave me with a hole in my chest
Now the time has come I just wish I could erase
All the damage done to your name and your keepsakes
Only just begun, it’s been fun, we were blind, deaf and dumb
There’s a party in my closet, calling all skeletons
Where did you go once the lights went black?
Look what’s become of me. I’ve grown to love your disappearing acts
Do one more pretty please…
Now the time has come I just wish I could erase
All the damage done, all this pain all this heartache
Only just begun, it’s been fun, we were fucked up and numb
There’s a killer on the corner and he’s looking for love
Yeah, he’s looking for you, my love
And to tell you the truth I lost my faith in you
And these unspoken lies appear at the worst times
They’re hiding just behind your eyes
Where did you go once the lights went black?
You nearly gave us a heart attack
We thought you might’ve swam out to sea
You gotta stop sneaking off on me

Help Me

Here you’ll find me in between heaven and hell my dear
Where nothing’s what it seems, it’s just as well I fear
I’m giving you the creeps and a farewell kiss to go into the unknown
Saw you standing there outside the music hall
You’d come out for some air, uncertain curtain call
And everyone just stared when you took the stage that night
Something’s not right
You’re up there, took the stairs to the stars all alone
You left all the lights burning but nobody’s home
I believe they deceived your tuneful heart too long
Now they sing along
Help me, help me won’t you?
Sing me, sing me one last song
Help me, help me, somebody help me
Save me from myself, take me from this hell
Here I’ll find you in between heaven and hell again
Where nothing’s what it seems, it’s just as well my friend
I’m giving me the creeps and a farewell to arms and legs and heads and all

In Vein

My point of reference makes me
Afraid to begin convincing
But you might as well just change your name
Because I only recognize this shadow
Kind of like a superhero
With nobody’s best interest in mind
Now there’s blood in the water
That I squeezed from this stone here
And we turned into our cheap wine
I swallowed every drop
I could feel my stomach rotting
You were so supportive as I drank through the pain
Do you recognize this shape? It’s the back of your hand
You paste it on my face here again, and again
And I don’t wanna be the one who takes this place in vein
Dove off the deep side platform
Jackknife to bone dryest floor
One broken ankle saved my name
And this eraserburn I dig in deep, at every turn
It keeps getting darker and the fear stays the same
I don’t want to take this place in vein

Over And Out

“Over and out,” she said, from a hospital bed
“For what it’s worth it doesn’t hurt, don’t cry.”
“Over and out,” he said, with a .45 to his head
“The war has taken everything from me, it’s all I see so…”
Run for cover as fast as you can
Where fighters are lovers, enemies are friends
And pens and knives apologize for leaving you tonight
“Over and out,” he sighed, “it seems I’ve run out of time.
Please tell my wife I loved her more than life itself.”
“Over and out,” she sang, as the telephone rang
“There’s no pain, no answering no more.”
Run for cover and you’ll find us there
To take on the anguish, make it disappear
When hand grenades and napalm flames are leaving you tonight
Let this candle burn ‘til you get home
Never forget your face, never lose hope
Tonight…
Run for cover and you’ll find us there
To take on the anger, make it disappear
When razor blades softly serenading you…

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I Found Away

Stumbling through the dark with a broken heart, all alone at it once again
Seeping in like a feeling you haven’t felt since way back when
In the dead of that night, like the summer of Sam
I caught word of the commotion you caused via telegram
And got all worked up, we got all worked up
I found away
Over the fear and through the flames, I’m diving in
Don’t follow me, stay right here I’ll be back for you someday
I found away, it’d be best if you just stayed
It’s not safe, don’t follow me
I found away, I found away
Frozen in the lights of a locomotive, tied to the tracks again
You said you haven’t felt this comatose since you can’t remember when
You fly off the handle every time we sleep, straight off the deep
From the top of my lungs the truth shall be sung, sharp and damning
Violently stabbing at secrecy
That look on your face, it’s more than I can take it’s scaring
The living hell straight out of me

Do You Wanna Know?

So hello where are we today
Still fighting, still running in place
And now the outline of this lake
Seems to be pointing me away
Honestly, I’ve never lied more
To myself all over the floor
Right through my teeth I’ve showed you
Just how weak my knees can get
Don’t let go… my spine is slipping like a fault line
If I go, I’ll bury us all
Don’t close my door… don’t leave me out with these mosquitoes
Trying to drink up all my wine
Do you wanna know what my love is?
Do you wanna hear how my song goes?
Do you wanna know what my love is?
Don’t say no
Don’t say no
So now it’s up to me to wait
I need you to reciprocate
My heart is ticking like a box
Sent to me by anonymous
And now I’m scared to open it
I’m always blowing up to bits
I’m always running out of lives
Running out of time
Don’t let me go, I’d fall apart
Don’t say you won’t follow my heart
I’ve kept this deep inside for far too long… it can’t be wrong
Only one life to give, I cross my heart and hope to live
With you my darling here for evermore

Live Young, Die Fast

It’s no big surprise we turned out this way
It’s in our eyes like shallow graves
But we are one with the larvae and dirt
We don’t discriminate at all for what it’s worth
So live young, die fast
No one will last
So sit back and relax, enjoy the crash
You fade into black and you’re gone
(It fades into black then it’s gone)
Live young, die fast
The uneasy life, an untimely death
This doesn’t work at all for me so save your breath
You took your time, stashed it away
Deep down inside of a cardboard box marked “rainy day”
I feel a miracle in every breath that I breathe
Won’t let this miracle end in tragedy
I sense a miracle in all that I see
Won’t let this miracle slip away from me

Love Love, Kiss Kiss

Take a look, you see I painted you a picture
It’s black and white, except the blood’s a little richer
Down in the corner where I gave it my signature
Then I titled it, “This one’s for the winter”
Check it out you see it’s just a big disaster
I’ll dedicate it to the fact that it’s so hard for you to dream
A million heartbeats all around you make it hard to sleep
It doesn’t help you’re freezing in your bed, your blankets aren’t enough
All you want is someone there, and all you say is, “So what”
Love love, kiss kiss… blah blah blah
You’re making me sick, I wish you’d just stop showing off
For the rest of us that no one wants to love
It’s hard enough trying to drink another winter all alone
Love love, kiss kiss… blah blah blah
Well do you find you like to fall in love with people that you’re never gonna meet?
It’s easier than breakin up and crying in the street
Do you curse the happy couple? Do you cringe at wedding bells?
Do you drink up all the punch while you wish ‘em all to hell?
You can’t escape this fatal case of melancholia
It’s in your face, in every place you go… it’s stalking you
There are days when we all say we feel we just can’t go on
But you’ve felt this way all along

Lost And Rendered

Found out the hard way that you were lost and rendered
All alone in the dark forest of your thoughts
Forever following a trail of fear that seems to lead
To more dead ends and mysteries I’m losing hope of ever solving
Can anybody hear me? Is anyone out there?
I’ve fallen and I’m broken down, I’m dying over here
If anybody’s listening, I hope you hear my cries
My will to live is wearing thin, I’m running out of time
Sounding the alarms inside of me
Hoping like hell the sound cuts through the water and the broken trees
And reaches you before the creatures of the nigh
Descend on me no help in sight
Won’t be long before we lose daylight
Take a deep breath, it could be the cure
It could be your last, can’t know for sure
Is it the hate they tried to show?
Is it the love that you’ll never know?
I guess we’ll never know

Ruin It

I’ve waited a long time for this life
Just to ruin it, so please don’t ruin this for me
Yes I understand this lie
Hell, I crossed those T’s and scratched out all those eyes myself last night
When I promised not to fight
So this is what I’m looking like these days
All grown up and so full of hate
But I don’t want to let go of my rage
‘Cause it’s the salt that brings the taste…
So where am I if you decide that I’m not right?
‘Cause I might break and I might bend
Your heartstrings out of tune again
And I might try to apologize
On a good day
On my best day, if you stick around
Did I stay inside to sterilize this knife?
Am I being too careful? Does this feel right?
Did I open up the shades to expose the sun in rays?
To show what’s burned there inside.
Yeah, take a close look, hold me right up to the light
I’ve waited for so long
I’ve waited for so long
Spread me out, rake me in
This coarse and rocky field will camouflage my skin

Into The Night

We’ll never know which way this road is gonna turn
Can’t be sure how quick your wick is gonna burn
So sing to me your darkest secrets
Time to leave behind your regrets
Before we get lost in the blink of an eye
This carrion has been forgotten
Left for dead in the sun rotting
The answer lies here in this tragedy
That ends with you and me
When we’re dragged from the light
Into the night
We have been warned which way the storm is gonna blow
But where the rip-tide takes us to we’ll never know
Now you’re screaming out for Jesus
Or for anyone please save us before we get lost
In the blink of an eye
The answer lies here in the mystery
That starts with you and me
When we’re dragged from the light
Into the night